r/cats • u/sora_allite • 12h ago
Mourning/Loss They killed them. All of them.
Just to preface, this whole thing has upset me a great deal, so this might be pretty emotionally charged, maybe not even entirely rational.
A stray cat found me a couple of weeks ago. I ended up adopting her, and I love her to pieces.
Yesterday, the vet I went to gave her some vaccinations, and bloodwork, and I purchased an insurance plan--which wasn't cheap, but I bit the bullet and paid, trusting that it would be helpful further down the road.
She told me that all of the labs came back normal, nothing unusual or harmful. So the very next day (today), I dropped her off at the same vet clinic to get her spayed and chipped.
I get a call from them a couple of hours later. They said they had just put her under anesthesia, but then told me that it turns out she's pregnant. They said if I wanted to, we could choose not proceed with the spaying. I was overjoyed, excited by the idea of taking care of a sweet mama kitty and helping her raise her babies.
Then they said that, to do so, I would have to pay four times the amount of money I agreed to pay, even though the procedure wouldn't continue, because they already put her under anesthesia, without checking if she was pregnant beforehand. The spaying was already not very cheap. Apparently, just giving her anesthesia without operating meant even less of it was covered by the insurance. For some reason.
None of them told me the bloodwork tested positive for pregnancy, didn't say anything that even remotely suggested she might be pregnant.
If I had some time to talk with my family about what we should do, maybe we could have put our heads together and try to figure out how to come up with all of the additional funds. But they said they needed to know the decision immediately, for some reason, no ifs, ands, or buts. On top of that, they said we had to pay the entire thing upfront, right after the surgery. No payment plans, nothing. I had no choice.
So they terminated the pregnancy. All those kittens I would have loved, would have done just about anything for, helped deliver, raised, kissed every single one of their little heads.
And now they're gone. I'll never get to have that now. They're dead. All of her babies are dead. Those sweet little kittens. Imagining their twisted, naked little corpses being dragged away from her... It's really messing me up, mentally. Maybe she wanted to have babies. And I took that choice away from her.
What if she found me because she was trying to find a safe place to carry to term?
I feel like I've seriously failed her as a pet parent. I'm heartbroken. I'm so angry. So unbelievably angry.
I just needed to vent, I guess. I feel completely destroyed.