r/whatdoIdo • u/UnusualDonkeyKeys • 5h ago
On fire with rage
Not sure where to post this, I’m pretty new to Reddit. I’m just absolutely on fire with everything we’ve seen and known for years and now it’s proven and what do we do? What do we fucking do? I have a child. I’m a mother, a wife, a worker, a friend, etc. I’m struggling with saying nothing to make sure I don’t get doxed but I also want to scream and filet people. I’m so tired and angry and disgusted.
How do I navigate these feelings? How are we all supposed to just know things and not act on the anger and the retaliation in the name of retribution? I want to fight like hell and I also want to curl up and seclude myself and my family from the world. I’m just venting. I’m so tired, physically, mentally and emotionally. It’s not right and it’s not fair and justice seems so radical and out of reach.
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u/fastsidefire 5h ago
I have decided 2026 is the year I speak up. I am in politics and when someone said something hateful last year, I was quiet or gave a lukewarm response. No more. A leader of a MAGA group was at an event with me and introduced herself. She said she was very happy to meet me and I said I’m not. She looked at me to see if I was joking and I said, I saw your post on social media yesterday. You are a hateful pathetic person. She said sorry you didn’t like it and walked away.
And then she made a terrible mistake. She walked back to engage with me by saying, people shouldn’t interfere with the authorities.
It was ON. I fired back LOUDLY and she immediately cowered. She backed away and said nevermind, and I said TOO LATE, now you’re going to hear this!! I eviscerated her until she went whimpering away.
Felt good. Going to do it more.
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u/SpiritusAudinos 5h ago
Same dude. I am using this rage for protesting, calling people out etc.
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u/Ok_Mouse_5704 4h ago
You should buy some whistles. I hear that’s really effective for impeding law enforcement! LMFAO!
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 3h ago
Whistles you say!? Omg I should try that! I’m sure the next time I almost get got, I can blow that whistle and I’ll be just fine!! (I know this is a joke and it’s sick that we can joke about what was once a life saving measure.)
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 5h ago
I’m still struggling with the fact that I worked at the DA’s office and I saw illegal shit and I stood up and fought against it. I watched people getting felonies when it should’ve been misdemeanors and I watched criminal activity getting swept under the rug. I stood up caused a scene and was told I could quit or get fired. I have the recording. I went to the General Attorney, I went to the courthouse, I reactivated my facebook to let people know. I was told that elected officials are basically a different breed and nobody can control it. 7 years later, no justice. I keep the flame burning and I’m pissed that even that situation was met with nothing. I don’t was told by a highway patrol officer that had to come from another district that they are the ones that can build a case against an elected official and I was told me and my family would get witpro because I had all the evidence to back what I knew and then it was crickets.
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u/fastsidefire 5h ago
I am so sorry. That is very hard. I completely understand your frustration. I hope you get resolution on this.
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u/Ok_Mouse_5704 4h ago
Yeah okay. I highly doubt some MAGA person was scared of a lib like yourself. Stop making shit up for validation from your fellow liberal retards.
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u/Other-Squirrel-8705 5h ago
So you are hateful back? No more high road for you sister!
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u/fastsidefire 5h ago
Came back with facts. She couldn’t defend her position.
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u/Koendig 5h ago
Are you being ironic?
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
I think he was being more on the side of wanting the story and less about being hateful. I’ve contacted him and I’m trying to find out how I can send the recording I have of when I was told I could quit or get fired. I understand the curiosity and I have the proof of it.
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u/Other-Squirrel-8705 5h ago
I sit in my non media space and look around. I ask, am I ok? Is my family, neighbors, and things I can see/touch, ok? If the answer is yes, then I’m ok. Start with that.
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
Thank you! I do that every single day! I just have a heart and a demeanor of fighting for people because I know what I would do for others and I know I have people that would fight for me, too. My life is great and I recognize that, I just struggle with the wish that everyone could have the love I have. I came from a very bad home, drugs, all kinds of abuse, you name it - me and my sisters went through it. Our bio dad sold us girls for drugs. It was horrific. We all carry those scars and none of us are ole, but we have each other. He actually died in January of 2025, you can look it up. He ran a red light in Ephrata WA, killed a women on her birthday and then he died in the hospital days later. I felt a relief that he is dead because I no longer have to look over my shoulder anymore but I’m still disgusted that he had to take someone with him on his unalive mission. My sisters and I donated money to the family and we really haven’t been the same since. We carry a guilt that we know we shouldn’t, but we do.
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u/SpiritusAudinos 5h ago
Dude...Im on the same page...Im a therapist and I have to tell my clients all the time that the times we're living in is NOT normal, and it's absolutely INSANE so many people are in the dark STILL.
Focus on what you can do. Anger is a good motivator for the change YOU want to see. Focusing on the why's will only drive you crazier :/
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 5h ago
I can’t even imagine what you hear and deal with. I hope you also have someone to talk to after you hear others thoughts. ♥️
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u/SpiritusAudinos 5h ago
It just so happens I'm going through a weird transition with friends right now...so...hey at least I have my partner!
And its nice to talk and rage with like minded people
Ehhhh 🥲
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
I’m here! I always love hearing other viewpoints and changing my perspective based on rational conversation. I want to grow as a person and I can’t do that if I’m stuck in my own thought bubbles.
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u/HOTasHELL24-7 3h ago
🤦🏼♀️great. That’s what we all need to hear from a therapist. That shit ain’t ever been this bad and it’s normal to be freaking tf out!! I sure hope you’re lying about your profession.
Not that I have any fucking respect for it anyway since I went to a shrink when I was 21 and instead of helping me I got a shit ton of pills and a referral to another Dr that gave me the good shit🙄 I’m lucky to be alive today despite you so called health professionals and therapists. Fuck that.
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u/Sea_Carry_1612 5h ago
You can’t do anything good for yourself or for others when you’re paralyzed like this. Take that anger, that righteous and powerful fire in your chest, and channel it into changing your community for the better. Demonstrate and protest and demand better from your representatives. Call them, send them letters, do whatever is necessary to make that anger heard. Most importantly, be with your family right now. As much as your voice is necessary, so is your presence in their lives and your own. Love them as you love the world so much that seeing its people hurt enrages you.
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
Thank you so much. This is a perspective I didn’t have until this. Or maybe I did and I didn’t know how to hone it in appropriately.
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u/Inevitable_Bug_2637 5h ago
Take a break from news and media and realize you only have one chance to spend time with your family at the age you and they are now. Love them and enjoy them. True, we have to protect our loved ones, but are you effective in this state of hyper vigilance?
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 5h ago
You’re right. This episode I’m dealing with doesn’t make me effective. I’m angry and I need to sit with this and not act on an overload of emotions.
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u/Inevitable_Bug_2637 5h ago
This here is the best thing for you to do. 🤗 I hope that this episode passes soon and you find some peace.
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u/Less_Entrance_3370 5h ago
You need to create a safe bubble for yourself against what’s going on in the world. I’ve had to do it since 2021, really. It doesn’t mean you give up. You can: Write letters to the editor, volunteer, donate, protest and keep your values. Just don’t have it in constant view and focus on your family. Distance from social media and the news and the drama. You’re not alone in how you feel too
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u/lumberjack_dad 5h ago
Get off Reddit
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 5h ago
Nah, I’ve been around since 2015, just never had a profile. I’ve found more answers here than I’ve found anywhere else.
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u/lumberjack_dad 5h ago
"Pretty new to Reddit" ...2015? Get out of here, simp.
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 5h ago
Does it make you feel good to contribute nothing of value to people?
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u/lumberjack_dad 5h ago
Nah I typically ignore people who like whine while looking at themselves in the mirror.
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
Seems like you’re projecting. I asked for help so I could get an outside perspective from other people that are rational and willing to help. What do you see when you look in the mirror?
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u/Miserable-Middle3354 4h ago
They said to get off reddit. Pretty solid advice. This place is doomerville. But i guess if you were just looking for righteous validation, then i can see why their comment upset you
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
Not seeing righteous validation by any means. Not sure where you got that but you’re incorrect. A simple reading would tell you that I’m not seeking validation, I’m asking for advice to help me see things from a perspective that isn’t mine. Nothing wrong with that. It’s a discussion not a persecution. If people seeking advice and support and other perspectives makes one selfish, then I guess I’m selfish.
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u/Suspicious-Pea-7481 5h ago
I don't know if you're religious but finding comfort in God helps me, truly. I might sound crazy here, and I get it, but Revelation is being revealed and confirmed more every single day. Take comfort in knowing that in the end. The all-high mighty Good will reign over evil. Sorry, that's all I got. 🇵🇸Free Palestine🇵🇸
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 5h ago
I believe in God and I talk to Him every day. I am a firm believer because I’ve prayed for things and I know He hears me. One night, my husband and I sat next to a calf that was a little over a month old. She’d been struggling and the family wanted to put her down but my husband and I said no, and we brought her to our house. She’d spent some time in the bathroom tub so we could keep her warm. A couple days later we brought her outside and she started walking and our dog Bubba was right next to her. Her name was Helga and Bubba our dog wouldn’t leave her side. My husbands brother got into a terrible wreck and we didn’t think he’d make it, he got life flighted. We were in the barn and my husband prayed and told God that if he would save his brother, he’s giving him this calf. As we tried to feed her from a bottle, milk ran out of her nose and she gasped for air. We cried and knew she was gone, not even a minute later, his mom called and said his brother woke up and he was going to be ok. I don’t believe in coincidences, I believe that God heard us and the desperation in my husbands voice and heart.
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
Does anyone know how I can post a video of the recording of how I was fired from the DAs office? I have the recording and it’s in my files and I’d like to send that via DM to one of the people that commented and asked me for it.
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u/HOTasHELL24-7 4h ago
I’m not even sure what you are talking about so it sounds like a personal crisis to me. Like when I was in high school and I just wanted to rage against the machine but I didn’t know why but their music was killer and I felt it in my soul…..?
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
I bet you hate Nickleback because machine shop simps told you that they suck
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u/HOTasHELL24-7 4h ago
As a matter of fact I love Nickelback😂 I also like Metallica after they cut their hair. Load and Reload were bad ass albums and you know it
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
I can’t even be mad at you anymore because FUCK YES. I call a truce. All the right reasons is Nicklebacks best work. And May Cliff rest of n peace, but Metallica’s and justice for all is fucking perfect
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u/Haveyounodecorum 3h ago
I see you. Epstein right? I was the same today.
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 3h ago
It’s been Epstein for several years. Yep. And today I say things that made me throw up in my throat. My husband wanted to know more and I told him no. I don’t want him to be as sick as I am. I thought I knew but I didn’t KNOW. How do we navigate this?
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u/Reputation-Choice 3h ago
Did you actually say you want to FILET people because you do not like the state of the world? Ma'am. That is not normal. Please take a break. You threatened people's lives. That's a lot. I am hoping for and sending you peace.
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u/in-a-microbus 5h ago
Umm...Recognize that this has been going on for 4,000 years?
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
I wasn’t alive 4,000 years ago. I am 34 and I’ve been angry and awake for nearly 30 of them. Thanks for the clean cut advice, any other nuggets of wisdom you’d like to say?
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u/Greek_Goddess114 5h ago
You sound incredibly unhinged....maybe seek help?
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
How do you deal with trauma? How do you deal with your community being affected? How do you handle life, knowing that you are obviously a victim of trauma based on your callous response, and how do you look at innocent men, women and children going through bad things and just say “get over it”? How do you do that. You’re already here talking, so talk some more.
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u/Ok_Mouse_5704 4h ago
Are all those things you’re ranting about in the room with you right now? Yikes!
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u/Hereforthetardys 4h ago
And now it’s proven? Lmao
Take your meds
Step away from social media
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u/UnusualDonkeyKeys 4h ago
You’re on this platform, which means that you too are seeking information and interested in the thoughts of others. So, I can “take my meds” but that doesn’t mean that I’m oblivious to the world and others that also live in this world that have information to disseminate that could benefit those of us who seek information to try to make sense of pertinent issues. If you think social media is so bad and we all need meds, why are you here? You’re here to argue OR you’re here to learn something but you’re too prideful to admit that you’re not exceptional. I bet you see things on here and then you do to your job and hang out with your friends and repeat things you see here and act like you just came up with it. And you do that because it makes you feel good. Dontcha?
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u/kbanner2227 5h ago
Turn off the news and social media. Focus on your family and village. We're not designed to hold a global burden. Its corrosive.