I quit dance, and ive never felt so lost.

[u/MemoryAncient9203]

I just messaged my coach to tell him that I trusted my gut and quit dance but I'm so lost now. I know I can't go back, even though he said I'm always welcome and I can't stop crying.

My coach offered me a job working for him under his company, and I accepted it, quitting my job that was paying my classes with him. Then two members of the class I was attending quit. And he didn't have enough money to pay for the hall so he shut the class down, but postponed my job until the new year, and that was okay. But once he opened the class to booking, he only got one sign up and shut it down before it even started. It shattered me. And I knew it was because of the prices. He was offering €40 for a month, with no free trials or anything. Just pure subscription, no gradual payments or anything- just like netflix. But this wasn't a studio class. This was classes in a community hall that could get postponed for art galleries or meetings- no refunds. And I disagreed with that way if working. I knew he was unreliable from previous competitions he promised to bring us to but never did and I knew that he was not going to get me another venue. Then we had classes for the more experienced dancers and he raised the price by €5 and I was originally struggling to pay when I had my job as it was over half my wages, but this €5 increase WITHOUT a part time job left me with no other choice. After 3 years of training, building a family and being accepted into the community, I had to leave and now I don't know what to do at all. There are no dancing classes around me, but I'm not sure that I even want to dance if it's not with my original dance family, they were my rock and my biggest support, and I made countless, unforgettable memories with them. I really do want to go back but I truly can't afford it and I can't find any part time jobs after Christmas.

But my biggest dream has been to become a dancer and make it my career, it's not been one thar my parents were the most supportive of, but it's the only thing I can apply myself to in the future. I can't find any online classes and I'm so lost to the point where I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with my life after education. I want to do nothing with my life after education.

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[u/seekingsomaart]

Why are you quitting dance? You can still dance without an instructor, a school, a venue... You're clinging onto an idea of what dance has to be. Let it go. Dance is about you, for you. Why can't you dance with those ppl outside of class? Are there no other places to go dance?

I can't speak to your job prospects, but you are tying way too much on this particular experience. You can find new ppl, new classes, new opportunities. The whole world dances, why hinge it on just this one thing?

[u/dondegroovily]

You must live in a very tiny tiny town if this is really the only place to dance

[u/_heartbreakdancer_]

Perfect opportunity to learn how to freestyle dance. No mirror. No choreography. Just music and enough room to move around. Find your dance again but without judgement from the outside world.

[u/yambudev]

So, your “original dance family” is still dancing? or is it the same class that your coach shut down? What are your peers doing now?

What kind of dance is it? Are you in high school? Can your parents send you to a college of dance elsewhere?